What do you do when your prayers feel unanswered, your faith feels dry, and God seems painfully silent? When It Hurts to Believe is a deeply personal and brutally honest journey through grief, depression, spiritual dryness, and doubt, and how one man found God not by escaping the pain, but by walking through it. Once a seminarian who turned away from the Church and declared himself an atheist, author Nash Delos Santos shares his raw and redemptive story of rediscovering God in the most unexpected places: in the silence of depression, the brokenness of marriage, the pain of loss, and the hidden grace of the Eucharist. Through real-life experiences, Catholic reflections, and gentle encouragement, this book invites readers to confront their own questions: Why does a loving God allow suffering? What does it mean when we don't "feel" God anymore? Can faith survive tragedy, doubt, and silence? If you've ever wrestled with God in the dark, or sat in church with a tired soul, When It Hurts to Believe was written for you. This is not a book of answers, it's a companion for the journey.