John Wilson spent his life mastering the art of disappearing. Raised in poverty and abuse in the fire-and-fury world of Pentecostalism, he learned early that desire could damn him and obedience might save him. So he buried himself beneath a life built for survival. He became everything a godly man was supposed to be: a pastor, a husband, a father. A man shaped for approval. But secrets this big don't stay buried. When tragedy ruptures the life he's constructed, the truth he's spent decades suppressing erupts-shattering his faith, his marriage, and the only identity he's ever known. Cast out by the church he once served, John spirals into a darkness he isn't sure he wants to survive. What follows is a raw, riveting journey through collapse and rebirth-an unlearning of fear, a dismantling of shame, and the sacred work of building a life that finally belongs to him. It's the story of a father fighting to stay connected to his daughters, of discovering grace outside the walls of religion, and of finding love that doesn't require hiding. Harrowing, hopeful, and deeply human, Straight to Hell is for anyone who has ever questioned what they were raised to believe-or lost a world only to find themselves. For fans of Boy Erased, Educated, and This Is How It Always Is, this memoir is not just a confession. It's a reckoning. A resurrection. And a call to courage.