We know that lying to others is not good, but we deceive ourselves every day, assuring ourselves that "we are not that good," and when compliments are paid to us, we find hundreds of excuses not to accept them. We always need something else besides ourselves, we set goals, we strive for them, and our life makes sense only in this process... This book suggests moving away from accepted standards and knowledge about how to "live your life" and what it is customary to want. The author shares an honest story of his life and the experience of recognizing all parts of himself in order to gain true integrity and regain the ability to choose. "I realized that constant self-improvement only cripples people. All my tantric experiences, mountain climbing and sunrise meetings on Machu Picchu have led me to the fact that the search for oneself and the pursuit of some ideal, in fact, is a denial of oneself, because if you are looking for something, then you think that you do not have it. But you are there." Masha Chamkina