The insecure little girl was the platform God used to get to Stevie Wonder, former President, Donald J. Trump, Whitney Houston, Elizabeth Taylor, Bob Hope, Gladys Knight, and so many more entertainers. I didn't know God could use the most painful part of my life as a testimony to bless me, and so many others. Marriage and family can be such a challenge no matter how young or old you are. Living for Jesus in the midst of pain can turn any strong Christian to want to give up, but God. Having faith and trust in allowing the Holy Spirit that lives in us all to become alive, and a reality can be so rewarding when we take the focus off ourselves, our situation, and the world around us. Truly believing and living the life, and character of Jesus, is overwhelming when we decide to really let Him, lead, guide and direct us. I found my work everyday, was to get up and believe, that God did send His son Jesus, just for me. I had to internalize it, live it, and walk in the belief and authority over the tricks of the adversary trying to take control of my mind and family. I had to die everyday and be willing to be used as a vessel for God to break the generational curses trying to plague my family. I had to really put my faith and non-wavering belief at the for front of my mind, family and marriage and be willing to suffer for others to see just how great Jesus really is. Helping them to see that His death, resurrection and His suffering, just for me or them wasn't in vain.